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Everything's turned private... all of it. Those of you who know me well enough will know why i've had to do this. you'll also know i'm really not a dramatic person of any sort, i'll avoid any unneccesary arguements. but this has become too intense for me now..
And..for my other friends, i feel like i owe for you to know.
you'll only be able to get to this link through my post on Twitter, i appreciate there's a few of you on my list who're friends with her/in contact with and may see this. but this is how the situation's always been for me. you should know i don't lie - it's one thing i pride myself on.
i say few, i know who you guys are. ..i'm not wanting to write this as a bitch fest.
I'm sorry, but the only term i can put it, is stalking. That's how it feels.
It began a couple of years ago, my best friend had new girlfriend, and i was more than happy for him. i looked forward to meeting her, and thought it'd be cool to be friends or whatever.
but then she didn't like us being so close. i found out, i backed off.
she still didn't like the friendship, and in short, i was made to feel like crap for it. i only ever wanted to be his friend, yet she was acting (from the hate filled message i received from a friend of hers) as though i was in love with him, and out to steal him. wrong.
i'm not that person.. it's incomprehendable for me. Again, anyone who knows me at all knows i'm not like this.
note: i was with my ex at the time.. so this wasn't helping my situation.
Anyway, i found out she'd been checking my Facebook and Myspace everyday (i didn't realise how low my settings had been, so she was able to access everything). i felt i had no choice but to higher all my settings, and block her.
i'd never met her, so this still creeped me out.
Last March me and him were then banned from talking. i'd been erased from his life completely at her request.
We were left playing dead to each other.
I thought by now that she'd be past it all, but recently i found out that she'd located my twitter. (Now, this she's had to do some searching to find in the first place.) I tried not to make it too easy.
but it seems that she's been checking it everyday for quite some time. The thought of this more than creeps me out.
The thought of someone else i don't personally know, who straight away decided she had it out for me?, has been prying into my life, using the only page i thought i was free to post anything i wanted, about everything in my life. like my family. my friends. my actions. my photos. to check on me? She neither had, nor still has any valid reason for this.
I thought i was safe.
It kinda gets to me that i feel like i've had to post this. For the past two years it feels like i've been dragged into their problems which i'm always trying to detach myself from. hopefully this will be the last of it.
I've tried to brush it off, look past it all. i'm not sure my friends do understand how much this can weird you out. because it has, a lot. and i won't pretend it hasn't freaked me out that someone's behaving so obsessive about following me.
it's the first and last i'll mention this on any public post.
And i'm sorry if any of my recent posts have been rather cryptic or if i've sounded rather depressed.
you can see i have a few reasons, this being one of them. hope you understand.
lovelove.
xxoo
p.s. For the curious. yes, we are still friends: we're just on mute.
you can't just demand two people to hate each other. =/
outout, and out.
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